Sunday, November 14, 2010


Abigail was so sick last week. She would go to bed with a normal temp and wake up with a hollusanation(sp) and a temp of 104. One night she woke up and began yelling at me telling me, "DADDY DIDNT DIE! HE LEFT US! DOESNT HE LOVE ME! TELL HIM TO COME BACK! I HATE THAT HES GONE!" I tried to calm her down. Get her to wake up so I could talk to her. I finally just started reminding her that daddy didnt choose to leave us God took him home to Heaven, Daddy does Love you that was the last thing he told me on the phone. And that Daddy cant come back once you go to heaven you cant come back. then all of a sudden (i didnt even know she knew some of these words) she starts yelling again "I DONT BELIEVE YOU MOMMY! DADDY LEFT! HE HATES ME! WHY HE NO LOVE ME! WHY HE NOT HERE ANYMORE! TELL HIM COME BACK I WANT HIS HUGS NOT YOURS! DADDY DIDNT DIE! HE JUST LEFT! TELL HIM COME HOME!" I started talking to her again. And Something finally clicked i dont know if she woke up some and relized what was going on or what but she crawled over to me and hugged me tight. I then asked her if she remembered that daddy was dead she said "yes mommy he died car accident, roll over." I let out the biggest sigh of relief that she did remeber.

1 comment:

  1. Oh, girl.......many hugs to you.

    Hallusinations and yet her inner feelings and wants. And even some lies from the devil.
    Yes, the devil...he is brutal. Not holding back attacks even on the very young. I remember my son who was 5 at the time telling me that devil told him daddy and God didn't really love him. the devil has tried to blame me for Jim's death, if you hadn't asked him to get groceries he'd still be here. the sneaky devil tries to tell me not to trust God because I did with Jim and God took him Home.

    Keep crying out to the Lord. And remember Psalm 6: 8 "Depart from me all ye workers of iniquity; for the LORD hath heard the voice of my weeping." In the name of Jesus Christ, we have power. Greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world.

    Praying for you as you teach your children truth and guide them through their emotions. Praying for you to put on your armor daily and for you as you teach your young warriors.

    Many prayers and hugs,